I know we've all been through times when it seems that nothing is going our way. The past four months have been that time for me. At first it seemed that God was blessing us, over and over again. It all started back in October:
Justin and I had been trying to get pregnant for a few months, with no luck. Then an unplanned surgery occurred (for me), which put pregnancy plans on hold. I was so disappointed at first, but then realized that waiting to get pregnant would be better in terms of jobs and the possibility of me staying home (for good!!). So, I praised God for His hand in this and showing me that waiting would be better.
In November Shelby had to have tubes put in her ears. It was a simple procedure, but put a lot of stress and anxiety on both me and Justin. Everything went really well and she did great!!!
Things started going downhill after that: Shelby ended up with a double ear infection and was in the ER on Christmas Day, I had the flu, and now I have pinkeye. But to top it off, Justin and I were blessed with getting pregnant back in December...and then lost the pregnancy about three weeks ago. I was about seven weeks along. Based on the sonogram and my labwork it showed that there really wasn't a baby there in the first place. It only progressed for about two weeks and then everything stopped growing. We never saw the heartbeat, which is a blessing. Thankfully God has allowed me to not feel the loss of a baby, but the loss of the anticipation of having a baby. The saddest part is that I would've been due two days before my birthday...the best birthday present a girl could ask for.
So, surgery for me, surgery for Shelby, flu, double ear infection, misscarriage, and currently pinkeye. All in the past four months. It's been a tough time!! I know that God is here with us, and I know He has big plans for us (Jeremiah 29:11 "For I know the plans I have for you", declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future."). And I have to keep my eyes on His promise. He always answers His promises, by providing us joy, contentment and peace. And I praise Him for that!!
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Im hugging you, can you feel me??
Its really tight and a few pats on the back, right shoulder blade...
I love you and your strength & focus though it all, encourages me!
thank you for sharing your heart with us... I will pray for you... I am sorry you are experiencing this in your life right now but so encouraged to hear that you are looking to our God during it... hang on sister... love sent your way.
I'm so sad for you. It is just as sad to lose a hope than to lose something you knew for sure. Don't get down on yourself for your mourning, it is necessary.
Hugs from Oklahoma...
Hey dear,
I am so sorry about this rough patch. We will be praying for God's perfect timing...and some support for you guys during the waiting. Thank you for letting us know.
Hugs to J & S!
Love you.
oh suzanne! you aren't alone in the rough past few months. i totally have been experiencing the same things. it has be super HARD! probably one of the most challenging times in my life. keep the faith my sweet friend. it will see you through the toughest of times.
So sorry to hear about your troubles! Fall 2008 was so tough & challenging for us and many people we know. Here's hoping to a 2009 full of health (& maybe babies). Lots of love!
Oh, sweet Suzanne - I am so sorry for all the difficulties the past several months have held. And especially broken-hearted over your miscarriage. I think the loss of the anticipation is one of the hardest parts of it. I will be praying for you and I hope the days to come will soon be filled with joy. Love you!!
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